changing

I am now two months and five days into being twenty years old. I  seem to find myself feeling less and less guilty for vocalizing my needs and for standing up for myself. I have always felt semi regretful for saying anything flawed about those who I care about. I believe that some of this inner turmoil stems from my lack of trust in others; thinking that if I said or did something displeasing to them they would walk out of my life forever.  It was easier to just be nice than to cause a conflict, and it is easier, but not always the best way to go about things.